Sometimes i just feel very fei and dumb. I dunno. I just feel so lethargic, so useless, like a pile of shit in a corner...

Suddenly, my last yr in RI is turning out to be a nightmare.
-Red Cross promotion got screwed up. And i jsut quarelled with the teacher
-Merit CCA also like screwed up cos i slack too much
-Failed to get in science club. dammit
-Most likely cannot get desirable GPA
-Still noob in jap

sianz...

Btw, i was piahing work the whole of ytd afternoon-thismorning. And iam pretty pissed with ser zheng. It's like physics he did so little.... and i was too worried, so i decided to complete the whole thing. Till this morning 4am. bloody hell. And now ser like blame me for solo-ing and act as if he did the damn thing. jibai. If i had waited, he wldn't have done anything. Before that he did not even attempt the difficult workings and his other workings are like how un-detailed. And as if he wld finish by todae. Oh well, but the way he spoke to me was shameless to say...

And i bloody hope sue ben wld not screw up his part.

But i kinda think i am a damn efficient person when i want to. Like holiday ws soo busy. Only got sat (headache) and ytd free. But finished a fair bit of work in this limited time. But i gonna have to ake myself more efficient ALL the time.

Anywae todae went for mouse again. A bit sian cos everyone was slacking, esp me. Afternoon went to collect my JLPT 3 certificate. YES! Hopefully i can take level 2 this yr. ganbette ne!!

And i actually found that national library is in Bugis. holy. all the while i tot was in chinatown. So went lor. The place is nice, but the effectively useful places are basement level. the queen of england just went there ytd, too bad i was a day late. So was reading sherman's lagoon the whole afternoon. A bloody waste of time but great for stress relieving.

But despite my efficiency, i gonna die. Math pt got 2nd part. Philo got cct, which i have not touched for months. Physics maybe have to solo the 2nd part again. Eng biography also haven't touched yet. Math trigo also never touch, and i missed all the lessons on ws 4/5->gg. sianz.

WE NEED I-LEARNING WEEK!!!

Now for more angst...

angst angst angst