Actually what is future?

Is it something that is destined? Or is it really something that is created, as some proclaims?

So many people i know are leaving on holidays this week... lucky bastards..

At first i wanted to try living in boarding and at the same time host those Malaysian students.. but i decided since it wold take up the whole week and this week is effectively my only free week during my WHOLE holidays, it was too tough a decision to just skip it..

I am having trouble writing the damn commonwealth essay. After that little surge of creativity on my first week, there has actually been no progress. dammit. i hate stagnant work. i know i am kinda slack, but when i start working on something, i hate to stop, kinda like inertia, just hate stopping there..

And there's 2 more personal projects that i have been neglecting too, one is that essay(not the one above) and the other is the drawing thingy... oh well. But i am pissed with myself for the non-progress.. yar